last night

So last night was an amazing dinner at Monteray Bay at Mt. Washington with some great friends and my wonderful hubby. I did my workout yesterday (Max Plyo) and drank lots of water in hopes of burning extra calories through the day since our 60 day pictures are coming up tomorrow. I passed on the bread at dinner but had 3 glasses of wine. Every glass of wine I drank I drank at least 1 whole glass of water (Tosca tip!) I passed on the bread, had a strawberry side salad and Chilean sea bass with macadamia nuts and asparagus. The fish was sauteed in butter so that was a killer right there! I did have dessert (peach cheesecake) which was totally worth all the extra calories I consumed! It was an amazing dinner and I totally enjoyed every part of it. Today its back to my eating clean and drinking lots of water to get rid of those calories from yesterday! Today is max cardio and insane abs and I'll be kicking butt and preparing for pictures!
It was nice to see such great friends and feel so great in my body! I was so proud that I could fit into a size 2 (snug, but fit). I started out in a size 6 and I'm slowly getting back to a 2! Wohoo I can see that by the end of the summer I will fit into all my clothes! Love it!

Goals

Yesterday and today have been pretty down days for me. I am struggling with this weight and I'm starting to become depressed or just really sad about it. I just can't get what my mom said out of my head, "What does matt think about it". That comment was about how my stomach looks. I am such an instant gratification type of person that I am having such a hard time waiting around for results. I feel like I need to be doing more and taking more serious action. I know that I could be stricter with my diet, I could cut out cream in my coffee and cheese on my sandwich and the sour cream dollop on my dinner tonight. I should also focus on the good things that I did today. I passed up on the carmel popcorn and the junk food at lunch. I passed up on the free cheesecake at Costco. I also got a nice compliment from Melissa's friend. As far as it goes, I just need to stay focused and keep on pushing play. I am going to continue on and finish the next two weeks and then my goal is to build some muscle with p90x. My goal is to eat healthy and to feel confident in my skin by continuing to exercise and tone up my body!

Struggles and Successes

This weekend I spent Friday and Saturday at my parents house because Matt was at a bachelor party with his friends. It was mom's birthday on Friday and we were originally supposed to go to Idelwild but the weather was not cooperating. Instead we went to get pedicures and out to dinner and shopping at the mall. At dinner I bypassed the steak and ordered chicken with a sweet potato and salad. I did splurge on a margarita and a small ice cream cone at the mall. While mom and I were shopping I was trying on clothes in Ann Taylor and I finally was able to try clothes on and things were looking good. Wohoo I finally like shopping again. I was in the dressing room with my mom and I showed her my stomach. Her comment to me was, oh my, what does Matt think about it. She also said, do I think it will get better. I didn't know what to say. I told her that I thought I would need surgery to get rid of the extra skin. I also said that Matt doesn't say anything because he knows how much I am self conscious about it. On saturday I stuck to my diet except for the pasta salad for dinner and ice cream cake for Allison and mom's birthday. On Sunday it was back to reality and of course I spent the day beating myself up for all the bad choices that i made. I did my workout and focused on recovering. In a week I will feel better but then the weekend will come and I'll do the same thing all over again. I need strength to make it through the weekend without cheating! I am getting so close to finishing this workout and I can hardly wait to take my next pictures! This is the last week before my pictures so I need to stay focused and on target!!!

Doubles

Today i pulled a double workout with extreme cardio and zumba. I feel great but I'm really sore and my hips are going to be killing me tomorrow. I didn't realize that Zumba was going to work different muscles than the Insanity workout. Seriously, i didn't know that there were other muscles I could work. It feels great to say that I pulled a double workout today, but I know that I'm not going to get to workout tomorrow or Saturday. I'm headed to my parents for the weekend. I will stick to my eat clean principles and I'll make sure to stay focused as much as possible!
1. Think of a get healthy task you don't feel like doing. Ask yourself, why not? Take a moment to jot it down.
-At the moment I can't think of something that I need to do. I am already eating and exercising as much as I can. I just need to stay focused.
I really just want to get that smokin body so that I can turn heads and have people say that I look really good! No more flabby belly, that's the end result!

I finally finally got a compliment from my SIL. It wasn't a direct compliment but she asked to have my workout videos and my Eat Clean Diet. I asked her if she could tell that I lost weight and she said yes!
Yesterday was Matt's 30th Birthday and I did indulge in 2 glasses of red wine, 1 brownie and a piece of coconut cream pie. I did cook a clean meal for dinner and no one even realized that I did it. Everyone loved the shishcabobs(Spelling??) and I made bruschetta from Tosca Reno's blog. I couldn't find whole grain baguette at the specialty store so I had to buy white baguette. Its unbelieveable how hard healthy food is to find sometimes.
My beachbody coach asked our group to define our goals for the month of June. My goals are as follows.
To finish my insanity workout by July5th. Continue to refine my eating clean principles and get my family on board with the diet. To motivate my husband to eat clean and exercise. To loose at least 2 more pounds by the end of June. That would take my weight loss to 10 pounds. I really think it is possible, this eat clean diet and exercising are doing wonders for me! I would reccomend it to anyone, I feel great!

I am so so sore today, after completing week 1 of phase 2 I feel great but I am sore! I didn't know there were muscles I didn't work in the first 30 days. I love the core strenghtening and the upper body exercises. I love that Shaun T works our core so much, hopefully that will help with the baby pooch! I can really see that it is deflating slowly!! I am still pretty much obsessed with it though. I just can't get rid of it fast enough. This marks the beginning of week 3 of eating clean. It is becoming a lifestyle and I am realizing how bad that everyone around me eats. It is very hard to go out or go to dinner at families house because there is basically nothing I can eat. For fathers day yesterday we had steak, baked potatoes, corn, creamy fruit salad, and rolls. Nothing was on my diet except for the fruit. I did cut my steak in half and had a baked potatoe, corn and fruit. I was still pretty hungry afterwards. I did have a piece of my mom's homemade strawberry pie. I drank water and stayed away from the appetizers. I even passed up on the taco dip, which is my favorite! I still didn't receive any compliments from that side of the family but I'm guessing that I never will. I just don't think they are ones to point out accomplishments on weight loss. Bryce hasn't been taking very good afternoon naps for the past 3 days so hopefully today I will get my workout in. I definately need to workout everyday. I just feel like a better person. I am so excited to reach my goal and have that totally awesome body! I can just feel the confidence building each day. That is motivation enough for me!

Last night we celebrated Matt's 30th birthday with a suprise party at the Hard Rock Cafe. We had a great time with lots of drinks and food. I gave in and drank poison aka alcohol and today I'm feeling the effects. I have a headache and I feel exhausted. Or it could be from the the lunch that I ate. It consisted of a red robin spinach bbq chicken wrap and french fries. It was so delicious but it is not a clean mean and I'm sure that's part of my icky feelings. I did Max Plyo Circuit today and burned off my drinks from last night, but then my lunch cancelled that out. No rest day for me tomorrow because of my poor choices in eating. I also feel like if I take a day off its harder for me to get going the next day when exercising. I love that feeling of completing a workout and being covered in total sweat. Its like I just gave my body a happy pill for the day. It also keeps me in check for the rest of the day in eating good.
My brother said he can also tell a big difference, he said my abs are looking good! So far he has been my biggest fan and motivator. Thanks Bro for noticing all of my hardwork. Well, tonight we are having a cookout so I'm taking fruit and sticking to my plan! I might end up eating a burger but I'll skip the bun!